12-Nov-14

Whom have I in heaven but you? And I desire no one on earth as much as you! My health fails; my spirits droop, yet God remains! He is the strength of my heart; He is mine forever! Psalm 73:25-26Just now, I wonder how I can cope with the stranglehold of dementia on my dear husband’s mind.  For 7 hours he looked for a way to ‘drive’ home, denied me as his wife, I am some relative.  My spirit, indeed, is drooping.  How can I endure?   Then I read, but God is still here.  Dementia has an end, but God does not. God is forever.And I breath in deeply knowing it is not just air I breathe, but the breath of the Holy Spirit that renews my strength.  Just a moment ago, I was ready to just quit caring, but I know this life is a journey that readies me for much more of caring, knowing and relishing the promises of God.God gives me understanding, power and strength.  I picture myself with wings of an eagle and I soar above what is and see what will be in Jesus Christ!  There is no other name, there is no other love that is so powerful and ready to be mine in my heart and mind and soul.Dear Heavenly Father, Giver of all things, Knower of my heart, be near to me and give me your gift of everlasting love forever more.  I praise you, I love you, I worship you with adoration.  In the name of Jesus, your Only Son, Amen.Don’t you yet understand? Don’t you know by now that the everlasting God, the Creator of the farthest parts of the earth, never grows faint or weary? No one can fathom the depths of his understanding. He gives power to the tired and worn out, and strength to the weak. Even the youths shall be exhausted, and the young men will all give up. But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength. They shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint. Isaiah 40:28-31